Supernatural episode Wendigo in verse by Tracy Diane Miller

I’m now sobbing. This is so good!!!! ❤ ❤ ❤


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Supernatural episode Wendigo in verse by Tracy Diane Miller

Three guys camping
At Black Water Ridge at night
Inside their tents
Relaxing by the glow of artificial light

A phone in hand
A video game to play
A quiet way to unwind
Unaware of the harm to soon come their way

A roar
And a dark shadow raced by their tent
What was this figure
To see where it went

An evil in the woods
Death makes its call
Robbed of the sanctity
As tragedy did befall

Meanwhile Sam Winchester was asleep
Nightmares his painful lot
Mourning Jessica
And a love not soon forgot

The Winchesters boys
Following John’s trail
A journey to Black Water Ridge
Will the search for dad prevail

But in their desire to find dad
And to discover how Jessica was killed
Sam and Dean still hunt
The brothers use their skills

Tommy Collins was missing

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Always Keep Fighting for the best you can be by Tracy Diane Miller

Beautiful piece by Tracy Diane Miller. She inspires me to #AlwaysKeepFighting


Always Keep Fighting for the best you can be by Tracy Diane Miller

I am more than anxiety and depression
For these feelings seek to define me
When the weight of sorrow is heavy
My courage I strain to see

I am more than anxiety and depression
For these feelings seek to define me
When the weight of sorrow is heavy
Compassion clears the way for my eyes to see

I am more than anxiety and depression
For these feelings seek to define me
When the weight of sorrow is heavy
You remind me to be the best I can be

I am more than anxiety and depression
For my heart can feel a warm lighting
I am more than anxiety and depression
I now know that I can Always Keep Fighting

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What a difference a year makes especially when you have a mental illness


A year ago I was preparing to attend the season premiere taping of ‘The Big Bang Theory’. I took the VIP tour at Warner Bros. Studios and got to take pictures of the backlot sets (‘Gilmore Girls’ anyone?), visited the TBBT and Conan O’Brien sets (no pictures allowed), saw the Batman 50th Anniversary and ‘Harry Potter’ exhibits (my hair was red so the sorting hat figured I was a Weasley and put me in Griffindor) and had what was a once-in-a-lifetime experience. Would I attend another taping? As long as I can spend longer than a few days there and I will make sure to make time to see my friends from college that live in CA and I didn’t see last year.

Flash forward to now and while I’m ecstatic and eagerly awaiting the season 9 premiere of TBBT, I’m also thinking back to the news that I read when I came out of the taping that Robin Williams had died. We later learned he had committed suicide and was suffering from severe depression.

As someone who also suffers from severe depression I can honestly say I know the pain, loneliness, feeling of worthlessness and the desire to make it all go away. I think I knew I was depressed after my maternal grandfather passed away in 1983 but I didn’t seek help until I was in my 20’s. By that time I had made a very poor “attempt” at suicide. I say it this way because I knew the pills I was taking wouldn’t kill me but I also knew that someone would see it for what it truly was – a cry for help.

Even though I’ve been seeing a counselor and taking medication for 20+ years doesn’t mean I’m okay. Between work, The Boy and other various stressors my mind has constantly been doing the “Things will never get better” loop for the last two months. I’ve spent many days trying to figure out why I should keep going and whether it’s worth it. I’m so spent physically, mentally and emotionally I don’t have anything left to give anyone especially myself.

Will I mention this to my counselor at my next appointment?  I always discuss work and TB but I feel that some of my other issues are shallow and I’d rather try working them out on my own.  I know I’m being foolish but that’s always been my MO when it comes to problems I feel are more superficial than serious; I internalize them because that’s just how I am.  I may write about them but I honestly don’t know what I’ll do if anything.

Something big happened at San Diego Comic Con

San Diego Comic Con, also known as SDCC, is an annual entertainment and comic extravaganza celebrating the world of fantasy/science fiction in comics, film, television, books, art and more. As a lover of all of these I’ve sworn to mark this off my bucket list sometime in the near future. Until then, I live vicariously through others on Twitter.

One of my favorite shows is Supernatural. Supernatural is one of the most popular panels at SDCC which is not surprising if you’ve ever read anything about the show. The cast and crew are some of the nicest people in the business and a large part of that is because they truly appreciate their fans. In fact, they adore their fans so much and vice versa that our fandom is known as the SPNFamily.

On Sunday June 12th about 7,000 people packed Hall H for the Supernatural panel. Right before the panel took questions 1,200 people held up electronic tealight candles with “Always Keep Fighting” on them.  This was to support actor Jared Padalecki who plays the youngest of the Winchester boys, Sam.

For the last several months Jared has done something I’ve found rare and extraordinary for a celebrity: shared his ongoing struggle with depression.  He is so passionate about it he’s on his third t-shirt campaign with proceeds going to To Write Love On Her Arms (TWLOHA) NUMBER THREE FOR THIRTY-THREE: JARED PADALECKI RELEASED THIRD ‘ALWAYS KEEP FIGHTING’ T-SHIRT TO COINCIDE WITH HIS BIRTHDAY.  What I find most admirable is that he doesn’t just mention it here and there; he continues to talk about his battle and encourages others to do the same.  This is why I agree with MTV as to Why Jared Padalecki’s Battle With Depression Deserves The Biggest Birthday Present Of All.

Here’s the link to the SDCC 2015 video Always Keep Fighting Candle Salute SDCC 2015 and Jared’s response Jared Padalecki Responds to Incredible Fan Surprise Supporting His Battle With Depression: “It Took Everything Not to Cry”.

AKF (shirt from the second #AKF campaign)


*I’d like to dedicate this post to Anne, Random Acts, RA creator and angel extraordinaire Misha Collins, everyone that attended the Supernatural panel in Hall H, anyone that’s shared their story, anyone suffering from depression, anxiety or any other mental illness and those that support them, the SPNFamily, the Supernatural cast and crew, Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki.  You give us the strength to Always Keep Fighting.

A Tale of Two Megs

About three months ago a friend of mine told me I needed to check out a little show on The CW called Supernatural.  If you like strong storylines mixed with humor, a touch of melancholy and an amazing cast including a kick-ass 1997 Chevy Impala then you need to check it out ASAP.

I immediately fell in love with the show and binge watched seasons 1-9 on Netflix in the span of three months.  I also started following and interacting with the actors on Twitter which is the most wonderous experience.  Two of my favorites are the ladies that played demon Meg Masters – Nicki Aycox and Rachel Miner.

Nicki Aycox, in addition to being a sensational actress, is a musician that loves promoting other musicians including Natalia “Saw Lady” Paruz.  You can find her at or on Twitter as @RealNickiAycox and her music at

Rachel Miner is an extraordinary actress whose credits range from Broadway to movies and television.  She recently posted a very inspiring and humorous piece on her blog asking us to laugh with her.  You can find her on Twitter as @RachelMiner1